I'd never even thought of that until just a few days ago. My good friend JR suggested it. I figgered I couldn't do such a thing until I was to turn 62, which will occur in late December 2019. I also figgered to do so three years before I turn 65 would reduce my Social Security benefits when I finally do turn 65.I hope you signed-up for Social Security Disability. If you haven't, do it.
I want to go back to work. I got my CPAP machine today. I am not too many minutes as of this hour to firing it up for its maiden voyage. I miss not being able to buy the things I want. I also have to think a few seconds before buying the things I really do need. My dad is keeping me afloat. It's embarrassing. I take pride in my work, even though I'm "just" a truck driver.
Being out of work makes me feel like shih-tzu. I can't go anywhere. I can't do anything. I have no money. I feel worthless. I feel useless. I am acutely aware that I'm unproductive. I know I'm helping no free-market company earn any profit. I'd make a very poor welfare recipient, would I not?